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Sunday, January 14, 2018

(Not a) Sunday Message

Some of you may have noticed that I haven't yet put up a Sunday Message this year.  They'll come in God's time, but right now I am in a "growth spurt" for lack of a better term.

I have made progress in myself by writing some things down- things I don't intend to share.  But they have helped me see some of my problems in a different light.

One of those lights is the light of fear.  I'm one of those people who hear the sermons on fear and anxiety and say, "That doesn't apply to me, at least not anymore."  WRONG.  A while ago a preacher mentioned that there were 366 "fear not"s in the Bible- which means that would make a really great devotional.  Me being me, I began to seek them out.  And I learned that fear is indeed a problem.  Fear of letting go of certain sins because IF I let them go, I could rise to a new level- and that would be scary.


Another is the light of frustration.  I mean needless frustrations, like yelling at my machine or computer screen at work.  Now, yelling at inanimate objects is a long-term habit of mine.  When I was 4, I fell on my butt running through the kitchen because I slipped on a throw rug on the linoleum floor.  I picked up the rug and shook it, screaming, "Don't you know I'm a PEOPLE?"  12 years later when Mom died, I made sure one of my first acts was to escort that rug to the burning barrel.

I constantly shout, "Really?" at my machine when it does something "stupid".  I flip off dropped objects on their way down to the floor.  And recently, I learned that that begins the frustration train rolling.  It treks then to yelling at myself, then God, then other people, and never once is there anything real to get upset about.

So in other words, I am learning about my triggers.  Add "boredom" to the list and you have the troika of my constant downfalls.


And I am trying to do something about them.  Admitting fear was a big help.  Breaking myself of talking to inanimate objects is starting to as well.  Boredom is still a challenge.  I don't need more activity as much as an "off" switch for my brain.

And I am learning I have more "image constructs" of myself to tear down.  For example, I have told myself a lot that I am good at prayer time- but when I hear stories of what really dedicated prayer warriors have done, I am shamed.  I have found myself having to require "kicks in the butt" to pray about certain things, and that needs to change.

The pastor I was listening to today is teaching his congregation that it isn't about "doing"- doing the things you think are expected of a Christian- but "being"- being more like Christ, in action and attitude and everything else.  "Be more, do less" is the mantra, and he's right.  We all look around for something to do, some way to give, and sometimes it boils down to we're trying to prove to ourselves that we're being obedient- rather than being obedient and acting as Christ would.

He also brought up a quote about humility not being about thinking less of yourself, but more about others.  Man, do I suck at that!  But that's going to change, too.  God willing.

I guess maybe this was a Sunday Message- to myself.  I should copy it and tack it to the wall.  I do that a lot, too.

4 comments:

  1. Chris:
    ---I had a hunch you were doing some "time-biding"...not a problem with the Sunday messages. All in HIS time anyway.
    ---I too have some "AT-WORK" facets in progress and you called me out on the FRUSTRATION (more on that tomorrow).
    You and I are alike in yelling at INANIMATE objects (Lord help any ANIMATE ONES...lol).
    ---As the years roll by, my "boredom quotient" has lessened, thanks to a myriad of hobbies that I've accumulated in that time.
    That alone is a GODSEND (as long as none of them turn into "projects"...heh.
    (getting too old for THAT stuff)
    ---Agreed about those TRUE prayer warriors out there. But rather than shame us, maybe they should INSPIRE us. There is ALWAYS something to feel shamed for when God reveals the truth. But, there is also His GRACE to alleviate the shame.
    ---Very much agreed on the doing v. being. I have to work more on the BEING part for sure.
    Anyone can "do" (and even make it look convincing). Some churches have scores of such people in their pews, sad to say.
    ---Be more, do less...LOVE that (and will take that to heart).

    Have to say this is one of the BEST "non" messages for any Sunday.
    (**note to self: Thank GOD today...a lot!)

    Stay safe (and blessed) up there, brother.

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    1. See, I think boredom is a misnomer on my part. I have things to do, but the will to do them and the thought process to remember them when I need to are struggling.

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  2. This was another awesome post by you but you have a habit of writing some of the best posts I read

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    1. You're not helping me with the humility thing, lol! Thank you, I give God the glory on these posts and take the blame for all the rest.

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